All of a sudden, I got the shits. In the middle of the night. What did I eat??!!!

I just added the floobe chatterbox thingy. I think it's better than tag-board and more useful than the comments thing though I dun even know why I do it for. No one ever writes me, 'cept the few....It's gonna take sometime to be able to put it where I want it to be but I think it's just gonna come down in the end. *sticks middle finger to computer screen*

Why do I feel so sad all of a sudden? I feel like I'm stuck in a hole. I wanna help someone but I can't. I;m in no position to do so...at this stage. I dun understand. Why do I feel so much for this person. Not lovey lovey kinda feel but really feel. Sort of a despair and emo kinda feel. you know. FEEL! But I feel so hypocritical, that's why I've decided to stay away from relationships after I'm out of this one. Maybe it is an crush kinda feel I dunno, so I guess it's best to stay away till I sort myself out. But I still wanna help. I know..No, I KNOW I can make a difference.

My own silent prayer
God, you know I never liked to bug you or ask you for anything and try to sort myself out, but this time, I think I really need help getting out of this mess. I dun even know what it is but I guess you do. Peace man.

I finally did it. Afetr 5 long years, I've finally bought new strings for dear old bassobutch. Sigh. Feel so emo now. My bassobutch has new strings. Now just have to change them.

I dun believe it!!! I think I saw Numbness again. WAAAaaaahhhhhHHHH!!!!!!!

now I member. I think I had a Close Encounter with the Numb kind. I think I saw Dewi at Suntec last night. I'm not sure. I think only ah. But when we passed each other, I was like, is that her? and turned and looked and I think she turned and looked too, I can't be sure, I could be dreaming but that split second memory will forever be embedded in my mind. I wish it would have been longer but we were both with some one else and colors star flying and all the usual hoo-haa. Sigh. I hate relationshiops. Shh...Dun tell anyone. Well, if that WAS her, she looks taller in person than in photos. Go find work now!!!!

I forgot wat I wanted to post. FARK!!!

Yesterday, what a day. I decided my hair was pissing me off so I tied it up and got my brother who happened to be back from camp to cut the tied up bundle off. *ahh...it feels good to wash the back of my neck* Then me and Fish were messing around on the skateboard. We were skate-holding more than we were skateboarding. *laf* Not to mention the new ab exercise game we discovered my skateboarding on your back and your stomach. Super fun man. Then I got back, got my mom to chop off some more hair cos it was long in the front and sides but short behind. I think I'm gonna go chop more off.

Oh yah. I just found out why none of my pictures ever appear. 'Cos geocities are stingy and doesn't allow us to direct files OUTSIDE of geocities. Grrrr....

It never fails. Everytime I wanna skate, it rains. Last Monday, it rained. Today, it rained. It's a sign. If the next time I'm gonna go skate it rains, I'm quitting. Bitch. Now my socks are all wet and I feel damn farking uncomfortable. Even worst then when my underwear gets wet. I guess it's time to do some work then. I think I may have found a job. Just have to send in my resume (pronouced rare-c-ue-may not re-sume) in that's all.

*sings in tune of a Nirvana song I can't remember*

Need to find a job,
Need to find a job,
Need to find!!!

Gotta take a bath,
Gotta take a bath,
Take a bath!!!

It's been a long time since I've been here. But it's because I've been slacking all the time, reading Dragon Ball Z comics again. Last night's jam was great. 5 hours in the studio. Had to give up Urban Rock gig for it but I think it was worth it. I couldn't say for sure 'cos I dunno how was Urban Rock gig like, though it would have been better if I had new strings and practiced harder, but HAS been more than 6 months since our last jam.

Anyway, I dreamt of Vanessa last night, or rather, this morning. It was a marvelous, wonderful, great, bestest dream, but I had to be woken up by my dad. ARGH!!!!! SO now, after slacking enough, I've decided to look for a jopb, but I can't find my freaking C.V. It's somewhere on the net. I now I uploaded it to my Yahoo briefcase but I still can't find it. FarK!!! "points middle finger to the computer" I think I'm just gopnna end up playing games instead.

I soaked my head in water. Gonna take a few days for the hair to untangle itself. THEN...

I just opened the Neverwinter Nights. It was SO worth it. Manual. Toilet reading material!!! And a cloth map. A CLOTH MAP!!! Whoo HOo!!

ANDDD....

I was waiting for my girl at her work place for her to finish and I was sitting on my deck and messing around with my pocket rubix cube. Yes pocket rubix cube n I didn't notice...well, I heard skaters skating past me. Then I suddenly noticed pigs. The pigs were stopping the skaters (both blades and board) from skating. Reason? No skating along that area. The boarders had to pick their deck up and bladers had to take off their blades. I know it doesn't mean anything but it does to me. Both of the skaters and the pigs. Oink!!!

I was at parkway hawker center just now....less than $10 for 3 dishes and drinks with my girl....so much more cheaper than Sydney...WhooHoo!!! and I saw this girl. Nice body. When further down. Nice Ass. Downer. Nice lEgs. Down...EcH!!! Pointed high heel shoes. I mean....pointed cowboy boots, maybe...but pointed high heels shoes. Where, what, who, how did they come from? I dun get it why do girls think that pointed high heel shoes or non-high heel shoes look nice. WTF!!!

So anyway, I when into PW shopping center itself and I saw Neverwinter Nights. I debated it over and over and over and over again and I grabbed it. Original yes. $64.90 ya. I felt bad about spending that kinda money that I when to spend more money again. This time I bought the Lord of The Rings 3-in-1 compilation book and the Hobbit for my girl. Now I'm truely broke. I'm so broke I'm undoing my dreads now. bLaRGGG!!!..~!!!!

I just ran ad-aware and I've got 410 components. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now my computer feels so clean. Hmmmmmmm.....

I feel so disorganized. I dunno what to do. I need a job of course cos I'm broke. I need to jam and skate cos I'm bored. I need to get out of here. I think I shall go play games. IF they work. Once this "Pool of Radiance" works, my life will be better.

Last night, I was at the Anchor Red-Voultion gig and here I am at TopShop typing this out. *note to self: come to TopShop for free internet access next time*. The Gig....well...the bands ROCK!!! There was Tiramisu, Cesspit, Force Vomit and Playing in Traffic or was it Play in Traffic. That Najip ALi made me confused now..I can't member if there was any other bands but What The Fuck was the sound man thinking? The sound was sucky. I get a better sound at Boon Studios man. No one wonder people say that the local music scene sucks. It's cos the soundman screws everything up. I mean, when bands play at a live gig, they wanna concentrate on playing and throwing vibes to the audience and not worry about the sound, that's what the sound man is for. I think I've said this before but I will say it again. Life doesn't need an anchor, Anchor needs a life. Give up anchor. Your beer sucks in the first place. Stop trying to follow or copy or try to push upyour sales by screwing everyone else's ass, especially those hardworking musicians.

I'm fucking giving up on this. wait till I think of something new. Aeegggrrrrr

Argh!! Cos of my stupidity and laziness. I screwed up my last post!!! So anyway..what I was tryingto say wat, here's my frizzy looking hair.

and here's it is after re-doing it.

Oh yah. This is my frizzy looking shitty hair after the locks came out.

BlogThis!

This is it guys. My last night here. I'm going. I'm gone. I'm leaving. I've left. So long. Wells un-fair. World's so small. Life's far apart. Mindless rambling (again), Meaningful letters. Words they form. Don't mean a thing. Images not heard. Sounds we see. I have absolutely no fucking idea what I just said, wrote, typed, entered, fingers running around all over the keyboard. yujqjw hwkue qlqwej s. LEave me alone. But come read my blog. Don't use what you've read against me. But understand what you've read. Enter letter of choice here--> -arg!

You know. Everyone wants to be mad, crazy, insane. No one wants to be normal. So if everyone is off their mind...who's normal? Maybe the normal people are thruly the crazy ones.