I feel restricted. I dont't really like what I'm doing. Or rather, I want to and can do alot of things. But I'm restricted. I don't have enough resources to do it. Ok. mainly money but money IS a resource. I mean manpower, ideas, venues, equipment, logistics, whatever, no prob. I can work around that. But money. That I can't do. Actually I can but i need a good start first. So far, not very good. Instead of being able to snowball, it just melts.

I don't really like what i'm doing. I wanna do more with less. Most of the stuff are just an act. An act like how an actor (or actress. can?) would act in a different way because it's part of their profession. It's all an act.

i should be happy but I'm not really am. Maybe soon. think it'll clear up in awhile.

Screw all these. i WILL do more. Just wait and see. Cheeseburger. 1 2 3. Always something new. Never ending.

I got a cat! More of a kitten actually. 2 weeks old I think. Natalie's bf found it and asked if anyone wanted it and I said, why not? Actually I just wanted to check her (the kitten) out but whatt he hey. Her name is Mojo cos if you look closely, the 'M' on her forehead is pretty obvious. Now I can say things like, "Hey, wanna check my Mojo out?" LOL! Any other Mojo-ness you can think off? Just leave a comment. Pics for the masses.

Sometimes,
it hurts,
it's hard to breath,
and there's no one to talk to.

On the other hand, *weak smile*, The Furniture SIngapore Tour is coming up pretty nicely. Check out the following websites below for details but it's basically...

Malaysian post-rock veterans Furniture are back, in support of their mesmerizing album Twilight Chases the Sun. Come soak in their lush, ambient sounds at the Substation Guinness Theatre on Sunday, 27th Nov, 6pm onwards. Supporting acts KLPHQ (KL), Life Without Dreams and The Subway Stars. $8 at the door.

Be sure to be part of this one night only headlining event, which promises to feature some of the most reknown up and coming local and Malaysian bands in the experimental/post-rock music circuit. Supporting acts are KLPHQ (aka the Kuala Lumpur Post-Harmonic Quintet) and local artistes Life Without Dreams and The Subway Stars. Sunday 27th Nov, Substation Guinness Theatre. $8 at the door, 6pm onwards. For more info go to www.earsofa.com/tour.html.

Furniture will also be playing acoustic preview showcases at Prince Of Wales Backpackers Hostel (Friday 25th Nov) and Earshot @ The Arts House (Saturday 26th Nov) with guest opening bands (Soon to be announced).
For fans of The Flaming Lips, My Bloody Valentine, Mogwai, Explosions in the Sky, John Cage and Bjork, this is a show you can?t afford to miss. Mark your calendars for 27th Nov and reserve a seat in the ambient aural sofa that of Furniture.

For more info and updates on  the Furniture Singapore Tour 2005 dates, refer to www.earsofa.com/tour.html

Official Organisers
Voideck Music
www.voideck.com

Platform The Label
www.platformthelabel.blogspot.com

note: Will edit this later. Not in the right mood.

Hey look! No one! Yay! -_-

Bloody hell! I wanna go on a holiday but I can't afford it. I wanna go back to Sydney but I'm broke. Even if I'm not, I can't raise enough money to fly. I have to save for a year. A whole year scrimping and starving just to fly. Damn it. The rich get to go everywhere and cool off and come back with their heads cleared and become more efficient in work and earn more money. The poor on the other hand gets stuck here struggling and unable to take a break and never get to earn more. Hate!!!!

Rambling on...

Whatever you're looking for will never be at the first place you look at. It will always be at the last. Like in a library. Go through all the shelves and you won't find it. Only in the very last shelf then you will. Happened to me. Twice! Stupid laws of finding.

I was at the cemetary paying respects to my grandparents on All Souls' Day and I passed this guy who was reciting the Hail Mary while I was looking for my Grandma's grave. Naturally, my brain started to follow the prayer and recited together with the guy. And a though came across, like it or not, prayer is actually very powerful. When someone says it out loud, anyone (who's familiar with the prayer, usually of the same religion) who hears it automatically starts to run it thru their head. Take the Hail Mary or The Lord's Prayer for example. Thus if one person is chanting and 10 person hears it, it's actually 11 people reciting the prayer. Or something like that.

In the bus today, TV mobile was on and some TCS chinese drama was on. I've seen this particular drama series before but not that episode, but it was the same thing. Crying, shouting, fighting. Chinese drama series are just sick. I'm sure there's more to a family's life than shouting, screaming, fighting, and crying if something goes wrong. Whatever happened to talking things out proerly. A decent conversation. When there's a problem at home, life for example, your kid coming home way pass his curfew, instead of asking why, we immediately shout and scream at them and start threatening with the cane etc. It's so chinese. Maybe that's why we chinese are so uptight. Too much influences by the drama series. Then again, I'm more influenced by the western way of life than chinese upbringing so...

This is so boring. There's nothing to do at work. Everyone is on leave. Super long but stupid holiday. It's Sunday, then Monday work. Tuesday holiday. Wednesday work. Thursday holiday, Friday work. And the weekends. Should have taken leave but there's nothing to do also and I'm broke on the 2nd day of the month. Excellent. Hence the mindless rambling that doesn't even make sense. Boring!!!!