Excellent. Just excellent. My glasses just fell into the toilet hole (not bowl) and I'm now blind without a spare except my old broken one. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Happened while I was showering and my glasses was in the sink. The shampoo fell into the sink, hit the glasses, *bounce!* fell right into the hole. Why is there a hole? Cos the water doesn't go thru the cover so I had to open it. Damn it!

The hole with cover.


The culprit


Boink! Into the black abyss of yuckiness.

My pathetic sight saver

Argh! The agony! But can't helped it, there's nothing else on TV and if I sleep I won't be able to wake up in time for work like yesterday. If you're up at 6am, check it out, then you can bitch with me. What happened to Yan can cook?

"Camera man, can you hear me?" Camera nods. "No? Too bad." Arghh!!!!!

6am. Stupid cooking show with some woman with a half cocked HK accent or some I dunno what accent (could be Asian trying to speak a cross of American and Australian) frying vegetables.

"...with a chopstick. I am using chopsticks because I am chinese and I have been using chopsticks since I was a little girl. But you don't have to use a chopstick. You can use a laddle."

wtf?! and their is pronounced "there" not "they are"

Thanks "y'all" who helped or was involved or participated or had anything to do with T.A.G.S. 2 this year. Without you guys it wouldn't have been possible. Thank you.

It’s Never Enough: The Art of Gear Stomping Part Deux

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Want

Want

Want

I got me a skipper. Not exactly the bike I want but it's all I could afford right now. Just managed to barely pay for it, that's how broke I am. Anyway, since I've been riding it for the past 3 or so days, I realized how much I miss riding. The freedom, the breeze thru the body. PLUS it's automatic, means I don't have to change gears, means even more freedom! And there's this flat floor board thing where I can put my bag, or even better, my pedal case!!! Now just have to get a soft case for my guitar and I can bike to jamming or gigs. Cool!!!

Also chekkit!

I Like Nonsense lah!!!

FUCK HELL YEAH YAY WHOOO!!!! These guys are fucking geniuses!!!

Yoooo!!!!! All just nice into one.

Check this out guys!

Sometimes, things can get really boring.

Fucked up. Sigh.

What the hell??!!!


http://www.singaporebikes.com/classifieds/detail.php?siteid=32736

Bluff!!!

Shit shit shit! Not enough time to prepare for TAGS. Die man. Why I slack off so long? Why?! Hope can pull it off this year.

I'm so staring at this.

http://www.singaporebikes.com/classifieds/detail.php?siteid=32736

Want! Want! Want! Want! Want! (not cos of the design lah, cos it's cheap)

Cool coke in a can with cigs. Crazy. Absolutely crazy. :)

4am. Couldn't sleep. I took a shower, got dressed, lit a cigarette and when downstairs.

430am. I took a drag of my cigarette and enjoyed the breeze while Oh Lately It's So Quiet by Ok Go played on my pod.

The song ended just as I finished my fag and I took a cab home.

I miss Australia.

Don't mess with her man

Whoooo yeaaa!!!!



And this is for you weiweiweiweiweiweiweiweiwei

My board is sort of fixed (pics up soon) but I don't really like how it's set-up so I guess it's back to the drawing board for me. It's bloody freaking heavy for me too, owing to the fact that there's a Line 6 DL-4 and a wah pedal in there now, and also that I'm terribly out of shape. I might get rid of the board all together and opt for 2 smaller cases instead. I might wanna dump some of the stuff I'm not using and throw in a TS-9 instead for the clean overdrive/booster sound. Being broke isn't helping however. I'm broke for the next 3 months or so, so I guess no moving out there.

My place is in such a shitty condition and so much bad vibes that it has became a chore coming here and I can't get much sleep either. On the plus side, I'll be able to get up on time for work (have been going really late for quite some time). On the negative end, it's not even 7am. I've been up since 445am simple cos I couldn't get sleep. I mean, yes, I did doze off into the comfortable state of "switch-off" mind, but somewhere after that I just couldn't continue and can't sleep.

In order to try to survive, I feel like, but maybe not, dump my MXR stereo chorus which I just got but don't really use but I like the sound, microkorg, microsynth, tremolo, also which I don't really use but I feel I wanna keep it cos I might wanna use it, Washburn 335 style guitar, magazines of hot chicks. But I also wanna get a TS-9, a DD-6 and/or an echo park, more magazines of hot chicks. Wishes and want-ses. Whishy-washy. I DO need however, an external harddisk of at least 300GB, an audio interface and a midi-controller. Some fags would be nice too. And of course, magazines of hot chicks. Oh. And a bike.

If anyone is interested, I have some stuff for sale at www.iammakingart.blogspot.com

Cool. Thanks to Willy, Spiderman 3 is about his symbiote, has Sandman, and other cool villians. Check it here.

It's finally here. After almost a month it's finally here. Now to play with my toys. Gotta get more short cables, another daisy chain, some velcro. I won't be contactable for the next few days to I rig up my board. Boys' toys!!!!

28th May. Now it's 21st June. SO BLOODY LONG!!!!!

It's coming. But it took so long. And after adding everything up and all that hidden charges, it's actually not much cheaper. And it's still gonna take about a week to arrive. Never gonna be here in time for the gig.

People still owe me money and I have no idea when I'm gonna get it back. In total it's almost a thousand dollars. Maybe I shouldn't be so sympathic anymore and lend money to my friends. Friends. If they really are, I wouldn't be waiting for so long for my money to be returned. I'm so broke now. Haven't paid my phone bills for teh past 2 months and I still owe dad for credit card bills. Credit cards are evil. 2 1/2 more weeks till pay day. And even then there won't be anything left after paying of my debts.

It's the 14th. 14th more days to pay day. 8 more days to an unconfirmed help out for a friend to do sound man gig. 7 more days to my debut solo gig and not enough material. 4 more days to Literati and I don't know what's gonna happen there. 3 more days to The Subway Stars gig at Rock D'Fort and I'm afraid of screwing up 'cos I can't remember the song names. Don't even know anything anymore. Don't even know if I'll ever be ready. I shall go out somewhere and hide but I can't. I should be at home doing a wash and working on my stuff.

Date/Time

Activity

Location

Details

Jun 9, 2006

8:28 AM

Delivered

Compton, CA

7:22 AM

On FedEx vehicle for delivery

CARSON, CA

5:23 AM

At local FedEx facility

CARSON, CA

4:07 AM

Arrived at FedEx location

CARSON, CA

Then where the FUCK is my stuff!!!! It's teh 13th and no news yet!!!! What the hell is vPOST USA doing? Can't they just fucking make a call or send an email saying hey, this dude's stuff is here. M-Fers!

Angst aside. Check this out.

How To Eat Fried Worms

I used to read this book when I was a kid. Love it man.

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what the fuck man!!!! You have NO idea how many times my mac crashed before and how much information and work I've lost. I was all fucking NBCB!!!!!! Assignments gone. Ideas gone. Music gone. I still like macs but...this is toooo much.

hello all. I'm in the car now half drunk waitingf or the booze to subside befoe I can drive home and dump my stuff and sleep a nd go for morrw's jam. as u can see from my typing i"m not bluffing, ut
s 4am in teh morning and luckily there's bandwidth i can steal so i dun just stone out in the car. just done a gig at home club with no crowd;s energy to feed off. i think i did a pretty good job with the sound compared to the other ppl who came in. I guess teh owner;s quite happy and keeps giving free booze. we (me and the rest who staed) kept telling him that the booze was weak and he kept saying you wait and give us something strnger which wasn't really stringer but we just kept drinking. in the end end we still felt teh effect. everyone else took a cab or had a lift back and I'm the only one having to wait befor ei can drnve without trashing my omm's fren's car which I kena fined for not puttingc arpark coupon already cos I tot free parking after 5pm and I went thu erp witout putting cashcard. wat the fuck. yesterday we (samanta) had a gig at naynyang poly. ok except for the amazing super incredible masive fucking reverb that killeed teh sound that made the gigs smei shitty. lucky it was keith ding teh osund or it would have been worst. teh night before we were recroding at shaun ala mindfuckingboy's void deck tring to finish up a decent mix for teh demo CD to give out to ppl/ in the end. the gig at nanyang had power failure. delayed and we had to cut our se shortl. all the kids weng home already by the time we played. Home gig also not much ppl. so it was all wasted and we didn't give much free Cds away/ free le!. wat the hell.i'm standing in bass for subway stars cos john entered NS and we have a gig n the 17th and i haven't cathed all teh songs yet. i have tp finish the e newsletter of funstage by sunday or latest monyda so i can get it out by wednesday. i'm their 1st guest editor for igt. ve honored and i want it out bewfore literati kicks off. so hapy got one person called to enqure about it. one tota stranger makes up more than a bucnh of friends. it meqns that we're reaching ot to ppl. that's wat we want. i can't be bothered to keep hitting the backspace button to chnage my spelling mistakes. moday sme rp STUDENTS ARE COCOMH over to leqarn abit abut therterre i dunno wat to teqach them about sound. mot prib what ever i tell them would ebe too uch for their little heads to abosrd. to me it ,ay be the basics of norm but to them. i must rememebr that i migt bring my laptop to "show off: abit. i'm starting to dig the laptop shit.screw bands man. go solo like wt marc and shaun says. but playjng with bads is differnet. i might jst incorporate it in. i so need to get a decent audio interace and controllers so ic an do more. weh n is my fucking pedals coming in? so long already. paid laready and i owe my dad liek almost 2 to 3 fucking thousand dollars. sue ann was the nly one who came down in teh end for the gig. everyone else. wat get free nrty for the.s queeze so many in the end not even one came down. fucked up. what's wrong with ppl nowadays man. i think it'll take another 20-30 mins more befire i can drive. it's too dangerous to drive ow. i'm not stupid. drnk already still go drinve. only stupid mutherfuckers wld do that. hope i get sober before the battery runs out. i bootlegged the gig. anyone who wants a copy contact e. anyone who wants free samanta demo CD THAT'S TTLE IMITED PRODUCED BLOOOD SWWEAT AND TEARS DEMO CD CAN ALSO CONTACT ME. IT'S MY FUCKING BLOOD WQTsweat and teqrs. i think i keep ghitting the caps by mistak. super rnt man uts keep going on and on and on i should finish y article instead by i can't be bothered. i haven't blogged in a while and sio hears something for yu. too lazy to uplaod pics. u should get an extranelal hard sijk and dump all my stiff in and clean up my comp. porn shold go too. hahaha..the good thing about pcs is that up can play games. surf porn do you work AND do sound stuff macs...pgffft.t.fuck off man. i'm switching back tp PC user. macs can wait till i'm rich enough to show off. mybe for video editing but the. for now. fuck off macs. no pritaed shits. piracy rules man. keeps ppl n their toes'. hink the alcohol has subsdes/d now waitkng for the fraking headache to go off. fuck man. shouldn't have drove. \but was late and i had alot of things to carry and colect. i should totally clean my room.wat the hell. i so wanna move out but so broke. rant rant rant. can't fucking download my email. i'lll just sit for ahwile. sdlkhs ;dfsd

Sunday. Past midnight. Still waiting.....

2 days and still counting. And then I wait.

I have spent. Now time will tell. To be continued.......

Since I've lost my pedals, I've lost the drive to do anything. I just wanna sit around and do nothing but stone. Plus the shitty guitar and shitty overdrive sound that came out from jamming today didn't help. YUCK! Gigs seems boring. Jamming seems boring. Going to gigs is a drag. Work is just dead monotonus. No mood to write songs. No mood to do events. Lappie seems to be giving me problems. Not to mention that I'm dead broke. Even with so many gigs and new songs that has been coming out and my cats becoming less irritating, all I can do is just stare straight and let the streams of time carry me forward. Walking, following, floating, riding on the currents to take me wherever. I've become monotonus. Monotonus like those who work cos they have to work and not cos they like their job. No more heart. No more soul. No more passion. No more money to buy fags to have a nice long drag outside my dirty balcony which I don't use. No more money to tank up on booze to give me that silly grin and half closed eyes and laughing like an idiot feeling I like. It's such a drag these days.

ooo...last one.

Damn you 80s! Look what you did! But they're still a great band none the less. Volume a bit soft though so crank it up.


Excellent keyboard playing


WTF!!!!


The original


Excellent story


And some more to keep you rocking

Yes. Yes! YES!

Yo!!!!

Great. I just lost a load of pedals. I was transporting stuff from Sub to Perumal and thought I'd just close the door and run down, grab stuff and run up again and dump it in my place. Apparently, I think/suspect someone just opened the door, walked in and grabbed my laptop bag (which I think they though was a laptop inside but actually my pedals) and an Ikea plastic bag full of candle holders which I was downstairs. I hope I'm wrong and I'll find the Ikea bag of candle hodlers at Sub and the laptop bag somewhere else (though I remember bringing them into the car). But right now, I'm down a Jim Dunlop Cry Baby Wah which belongs to my friend who bought it in around 1998-2000 somewhere there, a Line 6 DL-4 Delay Pedal which I haven't finish paying Mr. MISSE for, a BOSS SD-1 which always runs out of stock at Swee Lee and my first pedal, a Ibanez Phaser PT-9 or something like that. It's the old school one and I got it (thru a friend) at cash converters for less than $30. $26 or $29. Around there. Fucked up!

This is so fucked up! My tooth is hurting like mad. I can't get an appointment at a polyclinic dental till 3 weeks later and I can't afford to go to a fucking private dentist. FUCKED UP!!!!! Fuck it man. I'm not going anymore. Let the pain continue. Fuckers.

My woman rocks! But the stupid camera is loose. Bloody hell!!!!

7 1/2 hours to go to interview and I'm still awake. Why no sleep? Must be Jebediah's fault :P Jeb rocks

need...

...move.

...bike.

...holiday.

...job.

Want!

Damn you washing machine!!!!!

Your Band Name is:

The Stinky Ninjas

Band Name Generator

So true! So true!!!!

It's peanut butter jelly time! Let's all do the dance!

What the hell?! I'm been constantly screwed over. That's fucked up man. Fucked up. Fuckers.

Sigh. Wish.

ROAR!!!!!

Someone call SMCA. Monster abuse!

Zap zap zap. why not suck suck suck. I'd buy that. hahahahaha

Dude! Dude!!!!!!! DOODE!!!

Wahahaha!!!! Pfttttttlurp!

No rock n roll is so boring lor. Ya lame-o but it really is. Sat hopefully can really get to jam. Hope this line up will really rock cos I'm sick and tired of uninterested and passionless people and starting over and over and over again. I just wanna start, not stop and keep going. I miss rocking it out on stage, trying to figure out what's that note that makes everything sound right, bugging people to come to my gigs and sub-conciously flirting away with everyone to get their contacts in my pathetic attempt to get more people who never heard of local music before to check it out and give us a chance (or actually check US out :P), begging and slutting the band to everyone I know and pimping it to organizers to score gigs, having an album that I can safely sell or give away proudly and know we're still around and not hiatus-ing, knowing we always have a gig on standby to tell anyone who asks or anyone I talk to, or rather who would listen to me rant, to come check us out at so and so and then mass SMSing to everyone in my phonebook to come check us out (again) and thus overloading my free SMS and having to pay $100+ for my phonebill for JUST SMSes, lugging loads of stuff to gigs to archive the performance on audio and video and trying to gather emails for a mailing list that was never used. Sigh. Disheartened is the word.

Guess I'll put playing guitars aside for now and stick to rocking it out with my bass. My lovely sweet bass. Oh it's been ages since I've last caressed you. Since I last banged you. Literally. I think the last time was Stasis 8. Or was it the DXO gig? Hmmm...Back on track, guess guitars will have to wait till I can find something that fits. I'm actually seriously considering dumping all my guitar stuff and just stick to bass but...guitars are fun too. Not that I'm any good at it, or the bass for that matters, but it's so fun to mess around with funny chords and funky effects. So fun to lug around heavy cases of pedals and spend ages setting it up for a jam let alone gig. Unlike bass where you just plug and wait by the side while everyone takes forever to set-up. Miss is another word.

I shall be called Miss Disheartened.

I'm dreaming of another band. And another. And another. And another. There's no end. And since most everyone isn't enthusiastic enough to feed my drive for performing live, I have to create as many opportunities as I can. I just want to play. Luckily I don't play drums. Unluckily I don't sing.

Anyway...stolen..

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A new "just-for-fun" side project band is forming in the horizon and we still need some HR work. Female drummer found. Female guitarist found. Male bassist found. Searching for male vocalist. We are balancing the forces so we don't look like a half-baked all-girl band or something. Think Von Bondies or Kaito. So any boys out there who would love to sing for a no-frills-straight-up-we-will-rock-you band? I suggested rock singing, but male bassist said "anyhow singing" suits better.

Friday The 13th. Not such a great day after all. Paul of Garage Studio and the drummer of Sleeve fame passed away. Cause of death still unknown but he was found dead at Garage itself. It was said that he died in his sleep. I frequent Garage Studios a lot. Mainly 'cos I finish late from work most of the time and it's one of the coolest and cheapest and most convenient place for a midnight jam.I went for his wake and his funeral. The mood was so sombre at his wake. Those who came just sat around. No one talked. It was so quiet. His funeral was sad too. Heard he was the only son. His parents were really strong. 'Cept his grandma who was crying for him at his funeral. When his body was cremated, we all tried to be as strong as we could. But as his coffin slowly entered into the crematorium, his dad waved goodbye to him. It was too much to handle and I just had to cry for him. It was a very sad moment. He shall be missed dearly.

Paul was a great guy. Always friendly. Very polite. Super humble. He was a great drummer too. Just looking at the way he played and you could tell. His strokes. The way he played. The way he controlled his sticks. The way he played with dynamics. It was mesmorizing watching him play. I only really saw him play for the first time at Stasis 8 and I couldn't keep my eyes off him. That Sunday we had a brief chat. Thursday I just messaged him to book a studio for Sunday. Friday he passed away.

We're trying to organize a gig in memory of him. Do come to lend your support even if you do not know him well.

Here's to Paul.

THIS is Johnny Zero

http://www.thrillingdetective.com/eyes/johnny_zero.html

I like. Very Guy Ritchie. Very Snatch. Very cool. Like. Like. Like. Thursday late nights or rather Friday very early morning. Watch. Don't sleep. Before that there's a series of cartoons. Can't remember the names. The Amercian Guy I think and something else. What's it Bid? Catnip. hahahahaha...

I guess the series didn't really survive but I liked the pilot. What a waste.

Egon's sleeping on my lap again. Only he sleeps on me. Even when I'm sleeping. On my chest. On my side. Slut! Mojo just disappears. Cool thing is they're my wake up call. Every morning around 7am without fail they'll fight (playfully) on my bed and start nibbling on my leg and toes. Grrr.....! Why can't they fight somewhere else. By the time I throw them out of my room I'm up already. Which usually is TOO DARN EARLY!!!

Ahhh...Friday the 13th. I love Friday the 13th. It's just so...special.

Egon and Mojo are so funny. Whenever I'm in the toilet, theycomewhinning at the door for me. Trying to get under the door. And ifI'mtaking too long, they'll go to the shower cubicle and wait for meinthe corner. Hello! I'm taking a dump here!

Mojo's actingthequeen now. Only looking for affection when Egon's not around.WhenEgon's around, she's all like, "Hey! I'm cool. I don't need anyofthose childish, immature things." But when Egon is sleeping or notinthe vicinity, she's all, "Suckle! Cuddle! Me! Me! Me!" Egon ontheother hand is just a slut. Always wanting attention. Always wantingtolie on your lap. Always eating. Sounds familiar. hahahaha!

Gottafinda way to keep Mojo off the table. She's all queen like andalwayswanting to perch on higher ground. Always trying daring stuntswhichEgon would then follow. Like balancing on the kitchen chair'sback-restover looking out into the street and trying to climb out ofthe windowfrom the ground. Bad influence!

Gotta raise money tobring themto the vet. It's way past their checkup/vaccination date butI'm sosuper broke. Just paid $441 for my starhub phone bill and I stilloweM1 close to $200. ARGH! I'll never get my bike at this rate. I soneedit. Transport is killing me especially since I'm travelling quitealot. I so need a better paying job with better hours. I can'tsurviveon my current salary and there's so much more I wanna and cando. I'mso definitely worth more than what I'm getting paid. Guess I'llhave togrit my teeth and just wing it. In the meantime try to do moreandsleep less. Anyway i've been sleeping past 3am almost everydayforquite some time already.

Johnny Zero rocks!

T'was the day I got up finally after lying in bed and refusing to wake up for as long as I can.
T'was the day that although it's afternoon but my day has just started and I'm already bored.
T'was the day i'm too fucking lazy to do anything even though I have stuff to do.
T'was the day.

Current weekend plans.

- Jam on New years for Samanta and Vs Subway Stars
- Jam day after New years for Samanta and Vs Subway Stars
- Coming weekend. Gig, gig, and more gigs.
- Illegal jam till it's Super.
- Gig again.
- Chinese New Year and work
- Feb.

What the hell?!! So fast?! Guess I'll Diablo till my headache disappears.

Like all my christmas (and birthday) traditions. I bought myself a TV and a DVD player as a gift. 21" TV and DVD player (which had some problems, need to send it for repairs bloody hell!!! Lucky got warrenty.). guess how much i paid for it? guess again. Less than $250 for the lot! Whooo!!!! My kittens are abit crazy too. They keep lying in the kitty litter like it's some kinda bed. IT'S KITTY LITTER!!! IT'S YOUR TOILET!!!!

The gig at Hideout was not bad. Suprisingly it turned out to be much better than expected. Pat one-man-show was excellent too. That's the reason why I want to just play. The Bidster sang beautifully. She hasn't in awhile cos she was sick during most of our past few gigs. Even Joe Ng said she sang great. Finally people get to see what I've been raving about that the Bidster can really sing. And with no training or past experience whatsoever! I'm so right. In your face everyone! I know a Janis when i see one. I love Janis. Bless her soul. She opened a whole new world to me.

You know what I did today? I went to get cat food for the kits and with the Bidster's advice, got them something special just for treats. Got them IAMS to mix with their regular cheapo Friskies (Cos I cheapo. I'm actually just barely surviving on my measly pay. I owe starhub $400+ *hangs head*). After staring for a long time, as per how I normally shop, and eyeing IAMS for kittens rather than Science Diet for kittens, I grabbed a pack and paid for it. Only after the gig and like 5:50am in the morning after packing abit here and there, I discovered I bought IAMS for little (1 year +). WTF!!!!!!!!!!! Stupid moron!!! CB!!!! 1,2,3!!! Kao!!!! What the hell???!!!! Now I gotta go get another pack cos it's eating at me for what a dumbass I am. Plus anyway I gotta get somemore Friskies for kittens. There isn't any left at Mustafa. Dude, It's cheaper there. Maann, I'm spending more money on the kits for food than I am on myself.

I so need to work out.

Yo Flytrap! What's your home address? Wanna send you something. Thought you'd might like it. Drop me a mail. Holiday down under anytime? Feel like it. Send me pics of your bike too.

Welcome to my new thing.

"Are you horny enough?"

The world sickens me. All these riots, protest, murders, wars, wannabes, messengers....in the last wat? 5 years? No. 2 years? No...year? there's more shit than when Mask was playing at 630pm just before the 7 o'clock news. Like they say...Spread The Love. A little bit here. A little bit there. Forget the unhappiness. Forget the anger. Forget the bitchiness. Forget everything. Just be happy. Just love abit. And spread it. Like Kaya. Hoochie Mama!

Yesterday felt like a Sunday. A Sunday and I have to go to work on a Sunday kinda day. But it was only Saturday. Worst still, the Sudnday and I have to go to work on a Sunday kinda day is actually today. Deja Vu to reality.

Here's something for you from BD "My dream girl gave me nightmares" (or something like that) and from D.V. "I just came my face off...so hard"

Oh. Did I tell you I've got another kitten? His name is Egon. Pics and video!

Was at Barnone last night. When I left, I still had some beer in my bottle left and I didn't want to leave it behind, so I decided to take it with me. I mean, why not? Just as I walked out of Barnone, some guy, I don't even know if he was the bouncer or not but he sure as hell didn't looked or dressed like one, stopped me and told me that drinks are not allowed outside even though I told him that I was going home. Not like I'm gonna go to The Living Room or the lobby and gets pissed drunked on half a bottle of beer and starts trashing the place with my ONE bottle. His friend then proceeded to tell me that if I wanna take it out, I should go to the bar and get the bartender to transfer the beer to a paper cup. Like, WTF mate?! Think what? Coffee shop ah? Why not put it in a plastic bag with a straw? I mean, come on, I paid for the fucking drink. It's mine and I have every right to walk out with it. And I was freaking going home. So did not make my day. nn

Here's a little song for you guys. Remember it?

"I always give you chocolate, I give you my tic-tac
But now you got some kit-kat, you never give m back!
Why you so like dat ah? Oh why you so like dat ah?"

I feel restricted. I dont't really like what I'm doing. Or rather, I want to and can do alot of things. But I'm restricted. I don't have enough resources to do it. Ok. mainly money but money IS a resource. I mean manpower, ideas, venues, equipment, logistics, whatever, no prob. I can work around that. But money. That I can't do. Actually I can but i need a good start first. So far, not very good. Instead of being able to snowball, it just melts.

I don't really like what i'm doing. I wanna do more with less. Most of the stuff are just an act. An act like how an actor (or actress. can?) would act in a different way because it's part of their profession. It's all an act.

i should be happy but I'm not really am. Maybe soon. think it'll clear up in awhile.

Screw all these. i WILL do more. Just wait and see. Cheeseburger. 1 2 3. Always something new. Never ending.

I got a cat! More of a kitten actually. 2 weeks old I think. Natalie's bf found it and asked if anyone wanted it and I said, why not? Actually I just wanted to check her (the kitten) out but whatt he hey. Her name is Mojo cos if you look closely, the 'M' on her forehead is pretty obvious. Now I can say things like, "Hey, wanna check my Mojo out?" LOL! Any other Mojo-ness you can think off? Just leave a comment. Pics for the masses.

Sometimes,
it hurts,
it's hard to breath,
and there's no one to talk to.

On the other hand, *weak smile*, The Furniture SIngapore Tour is coming up pretty nicely. Check out the following websites below for details but it's basically...

Malaysian post-rock veterans Furniture are back, in support of their mesmerizing album Twilight Chases the Sun. Come soak in their lush, ambient sounds at the Substation Guinness Theatre on Sunday, 27th Nov, 6pm onwards. Supporting acts KLPHQ (KL), Life Without Dreams and The Subway Stars. $8 at the door.

Be sure to be part of this one night only headlining event, which promises to feature some of the most reknown up and coming local and Malaysian bands in the experimental/post-rock music circuit. Supporting acts are KLPHQ (aka the Kuala Lumpur Post-Harmonic Quintet) and local artistes Life Without Dreams and The Subway Stars. Sunday 27th Nov, Substation Guinness Theatre. $8 at the door, 6pm onwards. For more info go to www.earsofa.com/tour.html.

Furniture will also be playing acoustic preview showcases at Prince Of Wales Backpackers Hostel (Friday 25th Nov) and Earshot @ The Arts House (Saturday 26th Nov) with guest opening bands (Soon to be announced).
For fans of The Flaming Lips, My Bloody Valentine, Mogwai, Explosions in the Sky, John Cage and Bjork, this is a show you can?t afford to miss. Mark your calendars for 27th Nov and reserve a seat in the ambient aural sofa that of Furniture.

For more info and updates on  the Furniture Singapore Tour 2005 dates, refer to www.earsofa.com/tour.html

Official Organisers
Voideck Music
www.voideck.com

Platform The Label
www.platformthelabel.blogspot.com

note: Will edit this later. Not in the right mood.

Hey look! No one! Yay! -_-

Bloody hell! I wanna go on a holiday but I can't afford it. I wanna go back to Sydney but I'm broke. Even if I'm not, I can't raise enough money to fly. I have to save for a year. A whole year scrimping and starving just to fly. Damn it. The rich get to go everywhere and cool off and come back with their heads cleared and become more efficient in work and earn more money. The poor on the other hand gets stuck here struggling and unable to take a break and never get to earn more. Hate!!!!

Rambling on...

Whatever you're looking for will never be at the first place you look at. It will always be at the last. Like in a library. Go through all the shelves and you won't find it. Only in the very last shelf then you will. Happened to me. Twice! Stupid laws of finding.

I was at the cemetary paying respects to my grandparents on All Souls' Day and I passed this guy who was reciting the Hail Mary while I was looking for my Grandma's grave. Naturally, my brain started to follow the prayer and recited together with the guy. And a though came across, like it or not, prayer is actually very powerful. When someone says it out loud, anyone (who's familiar with the prayer, usually of the same religion) who hears it automatically starts to run it thru their head. Take the Hail Mary or The Lord's Prayer for example. Thus if one person is chanting and 10 person hears it, it's actually 11 people reciting the prayer. Or something like that.

In the bus today, TV mobile was on and some TCS chinese drama was on. I've seen this particular drama series before but not that episode, but it was the same thing. Crying, shouting, fighting. Chinese drama series are just sick. I'm sure there's more to a family's life than shouting, screaming, fighting, and crying if something goes wrong. Whatever happened to talking things out proerly. A decent conversation. When there's a problem at home, life for example, your kid coming home way pass his curfew, instead of asking why, we immediately shout and scream at them and start threatening with the cane etc. It's so chinese. Maybe that's why we chinese are so uptight. Too much influences by the drama series. Then again, I'm more influenced by the western way of life than chinese upbringing so...

This is so boring. There's nothing to do at work. Everyone is on leave. Super long but stupid holiday. It's Sunday, then Monday work. Tuesday holiday. Wednesday work. Thursday holiday, Friday work. And the weekends. Should have taken leave but there's nothing to do also and I'm broke on the 2nd day of the month. Excellent. Hence the mindless rambling that doesn't even make sense. Boring!!!!

Getting to sleep is hard nowadays.

Argh! I'm a fustrated musician!!!! I want it all. Siting around waiting for muse to hit you takes forever. Looking for muse never works. Just doing it isn't helping. Influences are confusing. Everything I hear is my influence. Everything I hear I like. But liking everything is like mixing colors with whites in a washing machine. Outcome is never good. In the end, the clothes are left hanging around stinking. I need a washing machine badly. I'm too lazy to hand wash. Blarg! I could do with a fridge and a stove or hotplate and a frying pan while I'm at it. I miss making pancakes with ice-cream. A bottle of whiskey would be nice too while chilling. Rambling on like a rambling man. Oh how I wish, how I wish. I'm so broke it's not funny anymore. Again. Money sucks. Should I just drop everything? Tempting. Tempting. But I don't have the guts to. Sigh. Coward.

1 year 4 months down the drain. Had my first fag after a long "break". No diff leh. Nothing special. Though the only time it was worth it was when I was outfield in the freaking mosquito infected, damp jungle. And I only had one stick left. Flarg! (I gave my 2nd one to my signaller cos he was out too.)

Well, reservist is almost over. Nights off today, out-pro morrow. I guess I won't be cmoking anymore after that. This year's ICT was...was...was...I dunno. I just went thru it with a dazed stae of mind. Just stoning my way thru. I can't even remember most of the guy's names or the drills or the commands, but I managed to bluff my way thru and still did my drills and mini-mission pretty well. :P I so rock \m/. I basically went to this ICt with only one state-of-mind. Chill. I did alot of lepaking. It's nice catching up with the rest, recalling stories and memories that happened 5 years ago. Everytime we meet up, it's always the same stories, and we always have a good laugh about it. Army life is fun. I would say in some weird sense I do miss it, but it's not something I would do full-time. 2 1/2 years is enough crazy-jungle-regimental-disciplinary fun. The yearly in-camp does do good bringing everyone together though i think it'll be more cool they they chill abit on the discipline like let us keep our hair :P

Here comes October. It'll be a fun month and more relaxing as compared to September. Crazy!!!!! Blarg!

Tomorrow. Actually in 2 hours time, I leave for reservist. I'm looking forward to the getaway from the normal stuff I'm doing. Not to say I find what I'm doing now a drag, but sometimes it's good to go off somewhere without any "worries". It's not like a holiday where you go and chill but still keep an eye on your bank account to see if you've over spent, unless you're loaded lah, or something. This time, you have to go. No excuse. You can drop your work just like that and you don't have to fake an MC or something. You just go and no one can say anything about.

Anyway, my current, or should I say then, hairstyle is obviously unacceptable for reservist so I had to cut it. Really didn't know what to do. To go crew-gel-up-all-spikey look? safe-short-back-and-sides look? Or a neat-combed-neatly look. Hmmm...didn't know so last night, I just shaved my head. Boy it isn't as easy as it looks on the TV or in the movies. It's not just put a shaver to the head and shave away. I couldn't event get a proper shave. Had to cut everything short, then run the shaver thru, then cut again, then shave. And even then, I couldn't get it all even. Maybe it's cos I got a shitty shaver. Anyway, I'm like a bloody recruit now man. hahaha. Recruit with a paunch. 2 hrs to reservist and I haven't packed. I should, but I feel lazy. Oh well. Guess there won't be any sleeping tonight.

I haven't picked up the papers or followed the news in days. Petrol prices went sky high and I was going thru sunday's papers reading the article about saving on fuel. There was this section about petrol saving tips.

One of the tips said : Close your windows. An open window adds drag and increases fuel consumption by up to 5 per cent
The next one says: Turn off the air-con unless it is sweltering. It is a major pertrol guzzler

What the fuck do they want! Us to asphyxiate in the car???!!! Wah kao!!!

Come on down to POW this coming Thursday. 25th of Aug. Samanta and The Leaven Trait will be bringing the house down with their all out power madness. The stage will fry and your beer will turn warm just by watching them. Come feel the heat. And drink faster. Seeing is believing.

Live and Loud at the Prince of Wales Pub.
101 Dunlop Street. Little India. Behind Tekka Mall.

25th Aug.
930pm - Samanta
1030pm - The Leaven Trait

www.pow.com.sg
www.platformthelabel.blogspot.com
www.egopop.blogspot.com
www.theleaventrait.blogspot.com

Up coming events

You know what's fucking irritating? That's fucking irritating. Can't people get the hint? It's so bloody obvious. Autistic I tell you. Autistic!

Oh. I just spent almost a hundred buck setting up my bass and getting new strings. Hope Dean Markleys are as good on basses as on guitars. Mark did an excellent job doing up my bass. Everything feels so much smoother. But I haven't played it yet since I brought it home. I'm a lazy fucker. I just realized I left my cloth with Mark. Oh well. I guess it's time to get a new one. Hope the feel of the bass I got straight after setup wasn't a high but actually feels that way. Happens to me all the time. And I usually just leave it in the bag till jam or gig so will only know on Wed when Samanta is jamming (the only day we're, or rather, I'm free).

You know what day is it today? A boring day. Actually, yesterday and today were like, the most boring day ever. So bored that everything was boring. Even stoning or sleeping or just standing there staring was boring. So bored that I actually succumbed and downloaded Java games on my handphone wasting $20. Should have spent that money to pay for my fine instead. Bloody hell!!!


In case you can't see it clearly. The gig's on the 6th of Aug at the Substation Guiness Theatre. $8. 3pm till late.
Samanta will be playing at 520pm. But do come by 5pm. You know how things are.
ArPee will be playing at 630pm. They're really a good band.